Where did I go?

I've been away for a bit not because I didn't want to write, it's because I've learned a very important lesson these past few months.  First and foremost, thank you for reading my little blog.  After all, writing has always been one of the ways I practice self-care.

A lot has happened and most of it involves my parents' health and other responsibilities that I wasn't quite ready to experience just yet, but they are finally here and there is no turning back. Looking back, I'm surprised at how easily it is to forget to take care of oneself. I've been so busy focusing on everyone else, that I placed myself in the back burner in hopes that I would return a lot sooner than later. Five months later (to be exact), I have regained most of the weight I had lost last year, and reality hit me in the face when I looked in the mirror and I couldn't believe that I had let myself go. I lost all of my body shape from going to the gym for many months before I stopped going.

Meanwhile, my main concern was to make sure that everything was going well at home and my parents were receiving the proper treatment. It was too much to bear on my own. I had placed all of this pressure on myself and that's certainly not a big surprise.  Somehow, my metabolism forgets to function properly when I'm under a lot of stress.

I've made it my goal to place myself first.  In order to take care of my family and accomplish my goals and take care of my responsibilities, I need to take care of myself first. I'm back at the gym at least 5 days a week and walking away with a good sweat stain on my shirt is good enough for me.  I'm teaching my brain to wake up at 4:30 am to gain more time for myself and so far, it's been a little bit of a struggle. I am positive that I will adapt and learn how to make myself a priority.

As always, thanks for reading!

Mayra :)